"Would you ever consider art as a career?"
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I usually go to the art gallery, to learn how to paint and just have mindless conversations sometimes. But, for the first time I was really thinking hard since being there and it was all because of the "decision" question
I usually go to the art gallery, to learn how to paint and just have mindless conversations sometimes. But, for the first time I was really thinking hard since being there and it was all because of the "decision" question
I first did this dramatic pause and considered it, and then I said "no..."(I was already studying for my career choice, and although I have taken a semester off, that doesn't mean I suddenly want to switch).
Do I?
Do I?
My art tutor ( that's how I see him), just took in my answer, said "ok", and returned to his work.
He never asked my reason for the "no" but I offered one anyway ... a one-sentenced explanation which encompassed words such as "love," "always," "animals.." However, the question still plagues me now and then when there are quiet moments, when I choose to stare at an art piece in my room, when visiting the gallery, whenever I think of my tutor. Tutor sounds so academic.
The setting is really just an area predominated by men who sit and create marvelous paintings or wicker work for sale. Sometimes they have potential buyers or a contract work with a collector. Then there is , the free lesson. Whoever comes by and expresses a desire to learn new techniques or develop his/her talent in art, these special people, who mean so much to me, will step in and help the individual blossom.
To me, the gallery is a place of escape into colours and focus, it's just plain ol' good vibes. Whenever, I feel or think Art gallery, there is warmth and I see a quiet rainy day. Not sure why I see rain but I can only concur that being there, I feel safe...like I belong.
But then, in the second week of October 2013, I left my haven with a myriad of thoughts and not so "feel good vibes." Instead, I was plagued by my thoughts, and my thoughts manifest into feelings of worry. Yeah, they are really powerful-our thoughts.
If I gave up my schooling, I would be left in a whirlpool of debt, an indecisive future and unread textbooks.
If I abandoned my schooling, and threw caution to the wind, I'd probably give my family Angina.
There are many hobbies which I'm sure plenty people do enjoy, but not all of them, realistically, can become a career.
Also, when I fully think about it, my choice to work with animals, is something I will sure enjoy, once the pain of studying and pouring over exorbitant textbooks are through.
Anyway....
Should I throw caution to the wind, I'll forever remember this bible verse:
Matthew 6: 25-34
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life ? "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Exactly.
Anyway, I'll have to wait and see where God wants to lead me.
Don't worry, for tomorrow will definitely take care of itself, and whenever or whatever you choose just make sure it will bring you peace of mind.
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